Susan Josephine Pallas Broad. ♥

It was 2009 when you left. You left on a Wednesday; i remember because we had p.e last period, and i sat in the tennis courts of Ecclesbourne, and watched 6 aeroplanes fly over; i waited until i saw the last one fly, so it seemed like you were in England for an hour longer, when i knew you were long gone by then. When you got there, you showed me a picture of your new house, I loved everything about it, especially the waterfall in the swimming pool. - The first album you uploaded to facebook was of your Easter party over there from last year, I smiled when I saw it, because you looked happy as you always do. - You sent me chocolates for my birthday, i remember being told early morning that a package had arrived for me, but i'd missed it as we were all asleep. I got my mum up and made her drive to the post office at 7am, she wasn't pleased but i knew it was from you so i didn't care. - As i ran through the doors and was handed a big brown box, all i could do was smile. - I sat with it on my lap all the way home, and sat on my bed staring at the card that read "Happy Birthday Danii!, sorry i can't be there!, lots of love Suki xoxox' - I cried as soon as i saw your name on it. I opened up the box, and found an array of brightly coloured wrapped chocolates, i'd never been so excited to receive something. - I ate most of it within the day, but left the chilli love hearts in their box, and put them away safely. I still have them, they sit in the top draw of my bedside cabinet, along with your blue ribbon and strawberry lipbalm that you left at mine the night before you left. I still have it all, in a little box that has your name written on it, i have a picture of us that was taken in 2005 when i was at yours on the keyboard, and you were on your drums. I have a picture of us that you drew for us, and the purple bayblade that used to be your favourite that you gave to me when you went. I keep them all, and haven't cherished anything as much as those items, because i know that if i just have them close to me, it's like you're still here. The blue necklace and earrings you bought me, i still wear them. I still listen to Augustana-Boston, and remember you saying you'd listen to it when you took off in the plane. - I remember the exact words you said to me in the summer of 08 when you told me you were planning on going, we were sitting in your garden, playing with the timebox that we put there - and you looked at me and said Danii i'm going to New Zealand next year! you smiled, such a heartwarming smile. I was so excited for you, until i realised i knew you weren't going to come back for a few years. I haven't seen you since the christmas of 2009 - 2 years that have been practically empty without you here, it may seem like nothing, but within that time so much has changed. I know you probably don't, but i think about you every single day - and i say the time that it'd be for you over there before i go to sleep, and when i wake up. - I say goodnight when i know you'd just be getting up. It's not fair that i've had you taken from me. It's not fair that i can't see you everyday like i used to. I went to your house earlier, well what used to be your house. I went and stood outside it and looked up at the windows. I remember sitting in your mum's bedroom getting ready, and waiting to go to Claire and Vicki's birthday party. I was a hippy and you were a chinese lady. I remember your bright red shoes, and the noise they made when you walked down the stairs and into the car with them on. - You're 16 this year Suki, doesn't that scare you? - it scares me the more i think about it. I want you here Suki, more than anything in the world. I never wanted to be seperated from my best friend. I just want to hear your little laugh, and see those big brown eyes again. I want to see you look up at me when i hug you, and smile. I want my best friend back, and not on the otherside of the world. I want you round the corner, not 11 thousand miles away.I want you, my Suki Broad back here in England, so i can hug you one last time.I miss you, and love you so much.Forever, and always - I promise.<3<3<3<3<3