Not good enough.

Have you ever felt like there isn't any point anymore? Like whenever someone tells you something good, you know their lying? Or when you fell like giving up is all you can do? It's that feeling where all you want to do is cry, but still you hold a smile on your face to show everyone that you're alright, when in reality all you want to do is shout out to the world that you need help? Asking for help is something that everyone in their life will do, and it really isn't as bad as people make it out to be. You may think that no one understands what it is that you're going through, but sometimes there will be someone who can tell you even just a little something that can help you, and that will somewhat put your mind at ease, even just for a little while. Sometimes things go wrong, things that are left out of your control, that will leave you wondering what will happen next. You'll panic, get scared and worry about something that probably isn't even that big a deal, and sometimes that isn't even there in the first place, or that isn't even a problem in general, but that's the way your head perceives it to be. Sometimes your feelings and reactions to things are out of your control. People will offer you opportunities you never thought could be acheived. You'll have dreams that you just wish would come true so you could regain optimum happiness. But what if your brains telling you its giving up on all hopes of ever being happy again? What if all you want to do is succeed but these just that thought in the back of your head telling you that what you want can never be obtained? Your brain, above anyone and anything can and will develop into your worst nightmare, because its the only thing sotpping you from being who you are, and to keep you from what you need, at the same time of making you who you are, and helping you get what you want. Sometimes you'll think that you're just not good enough for anything, and that regardless of what anyone says, it will never change how you see yourself. It's like looking in a mirror applying make-up. You see what needs covering up, or what needs adding too, but when you can't apply anymore make-up to what's already on your face, you begin to see what it is that's underneath it all, and how nothing can change what you don't like. Have you ever broken down infront of a mirror? Did you see cracks in your reflection, that you knew just couldn't be changed? Feeling like you're not good enough, or seeing that you're not good enough is one of the hardest things that you can do. If you ever feel like you're not good enough, regardless of what anyone says to you, you know that you're self image is a mess. - Finding faults in yourself, is something that you can't help but do, everyone does it. What if the person that you adore, the people that you hold closest are the ones that you want to believe, but you can't? Like I said, your heads your worst nightmare. It can make you believe things that you don't want to, it can make things that aren't their appear, that can scare you, and above all it can trick you into anything and everything you don't want to believe.